It is times like this that I wish that she is here with me. To sooth me with her voice and to tell me that things will work out in a blink of the eye. But most of all, I just want her to be here with me no matterwhat. I know, I’m being selfish but I’m not always like this am I?

I know it’s impossible for her to come home. KL is not near, I know. It’s a one day worth of travel, I know. Still, I want her to be with me. See how selfish I can be?

I SMSed her though. She SMSed back. She wants the best for me, she said. She’ll be happy as long as I’m happy. She’s just worried that I was suicidal. Hahaha.

There’s this other person that I want to talk to. I just don’t dare too. I really want to talk to My Lovely Sweetylittlebooboo. I’m not sure why but her opinion means a lot to me.

Why haven’t I call? Let’s see:

She’s probably busy with work. At least that’s what I’ve been telling myself when she ignores me xD

I hate the fact that she always giving me mixed signals. I hate it to the extent that I don’t want to call her up.

She ignored my Y!M message just now. Okay… I’m being irrational. She probably didn’t respond because there’s a ‘Invisible’ status beside her ID. Right?

So anyways, I’m still confused and don’t know what to do. We’ll see how tomorrow goes.

So here at last the long awaited new year of 2009, for me im glad to get rid of 2008 it was indeed a questionable year, so this year started as usual with a good party and with the company of good friends. And so my year of discovery is about to begin, what this is all about is me finding new things, new experiencesin cornwall and telling you guys about them and whiloe they might not be new to you they are to me, and so it begins… the only problem is where to begin?

Well i guess i will figure that out pretty soon and have a strange report ready for you very soon! I sincerely hope that 2009 is a good year for you all.